I have been known to ‘all of a sudden’ cut my hair. Ever since I was old enough to have permission to do so, I have always just decided at the most spontaneous moment that it was time to chop the hair or color it really funky. This familiar action took place again this past Wednesday. One of the main things that women say to me when they see me and my new do is “I wish I were brave enough to do that!”
I have shaken this phrase off because I hear it so often but something was different about hearing it this past week. I wish I were brave enough to do that. My question back is “Why aren’t you?!?!” Now you know this is about to go in a total different direction than just talking about hair.
There are things that people do all the time where I find myself saying, “I wish I were brave enough to do that.” Their question back to me would mostly be, “Why aren’t you?” The answer is — I don’t know.
I think we build these ideas in our heads of how it should be or what needs to be in place before we actually step out and do something brave. What are we waiting for? Who are we waiting on?
In my situation, it’s just hair. It will grow back (hopefully). So even if you step out to get it chopped off, so what if it gets messed up?!?! Some of you may not know that I actually attempted this same hair style last summer and it did get messed up. A miscommunication during a salon visit can be traumatic! I got lots of compliments during that awkward hair phase (I think they were genuine) and I got through it.
I know for myself that I am pretty quick to get my hair chopped off but at the same time TERRIFIED to step out into something challenging yet fulfilling. I use the excuse “I don’t want to make a move out of God’s will” or “I’m just waiting on God”
I am afraid of failure, shoot… I’m afraid of success. I’m afraid of starting something just to quit. Funny, huh? Actually it’s pretty sad.
Lately I have been challenged with the question (and I’d love to hear your thoughts/opinions on this one) what’s the difference between waiting on God vs Stepping out to tackle your dream? I’m told by wonderful people/mentors, “You just have to be praying fervently, reading the Word, and waiting on God.” Then I’m told by other wonderful people/mentors, “Honey, you need to get up and MOVE. God has great things for you but you need to step out to seek them.” I have found myself very conflicted with this lately. I’m confused. Very.
You guys KNOW that I KNOW fear. Fear moved in and hung out with me for over a year of my life along with her cousins Paralyzing Fear, Anxiety, Panic, and Depression. Talk about guests wearing out their welcome. I have noticed that the memory of fear still hangs around though – luckily for me I know Jesus Christ and I know that the God has not given me a spirit of fear (2 Timothy 1:7 NKJV) and that PERFECT LOVE casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). I am so thankful for God’s Word and the Holy Spirit that dwells in me.
It has really been on my heart to write about this bravery thing. Why are we so afraid? Why am I so afraid?
I pray that the Spirit stirs our hearts so aggressively that we can’t hold back any longer!
Acts 17:28 ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’
LIVE ABUNDANTLY!!!!!!! **yelling in the mirror**