I am so thankful for the renewing of my strength. Yesterday a couple at church prayed over me and it shook me to the core. Prayer is so important. Praying with other Believers is amazing – other people of God agreeing with you and standing with you. Something that rings in my ears from what they prayed was “Father, we pray that April would stand firm and place her stake in the ground right here.” … Wow! The visual that I get from that is too cool.
I have to tell you – since last Tuesday when I made up my mind that I was going to choose to really believe God and take Him at His Word, I was taking my gift of freedom back, and I was going to stand firm to defend it – I have not slipped back into a whirl of depression AT ALL… not even a little bit.
There is more joy inside of me than ever before. I am on fire for the Word of God. I am more confident than I have ever been. I am secure. I am still standing…and stronger. He has renewed me just like His Word said He would.
I want you to know that if you are feeling weary and worn out – it’s not over yet! Hang in there! You have to make a choice right now. Take back your freedom, defend it because it belongs to you!
On another note:
Reconciliation – Romans 12:18 “If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.” A couple of weeks ago me and a group of females met together for dinner to discuss some differences. We all agreed to meet up and talk through some things. The dinner started a little rough but ended in peace with laughter. I know that God’s heart was so happy and I see why He tells us to work things out, to forgive, to move on. We all sat there face to face and worked out our differences. Sorry was said to one another. Forgiveness took place. It was beautiful.
To see women humble themselves before one another and explain miscommunications or say sorry for selfish intentions was such a lovely sight. I am glad I got to be apart of it and be reconciled. I am also glad that every woman offered forgiveness. It really was amazing.
The enemy works to cause a divide in our friendships – anything to isolate us. Sad. How often are we listening to his lies about the people around us who we know LOVE us? I have an idea… how about from now on instead of discussing issues through text, email, facebook, or even over the phone – get face to face with your friend and talk. Make sure you have brought the offense before the Lord first, though. He can help you sort through some of the hurt. The face to face conversation will go way better than any other form of communication.
Learn from many of my past mistakes – I have lost a lot of friends due to miscommunications, hightened emotions, some hear-say, and the devil’s lies. I believe everything has worked out just as it should and unfortunately some people chose to no longer be apart of my life as a result of my growing pains – but I believe those who are in my life now are the right ones – the ones that are suppose to be there. They chose to stand by me and I am forever grateful. On the other hand – no hard feelings towards the ones who unplugged, I wish them all the best and understand that sometimes we just can’t handle the weight of someone else’s growing pains.
From this point forward though – If I have anything to do with it – I’m trying to work it out. People are messy… we are – but what great packages of treasure come with the messiness! I’ll take it.
Check your heart – do you need to forgive? Do you need to reconcile? “To forgive is to set a prisoner free and then discover that the prisoner was you.” –Lewis B. Smedes. I love that quote.
I think that’s all for my brain today. 🙂